It is almost ending, I can feel it.
As pessimistic and fatalistic as it may seem, that's all there is to it.
The End. Finito.
The so-called 'pull' to return to it is usually expressed to me based on perceived underlying personal fears - what if ending it doesn't work i.e. the goal does not materialise when I am with others, it will take more time to attain that goal once I start a new one, what if others live a miserable existence without my presence, etc. Or that it would be seen that the ending would be purely my fault, because I am impatient, demanding, inconsiderate, uncommunicative, stuck-in-the-past, and a negative influence toward others.
I fear none of these, because God is with me, every step of the way.
There is no real indication of even the slightest action toward achieving that goal. Time and again, it was proven that there is no priority set for that goal...talk is cheap, especially when the very idea of goal achievement is based on hearsay and not on easily researched facts.
Instead, emphasis was and is, on frivolous pleasures... that shows me much on where my own position in this situation lies.
I am very grateful to my Lord and praise Him for this opportunity to grow, to learn, to accept others more, and also to accept my own strengths and weaknesses and better myself in Him from there.
I am at peace now, for I know that my Lord will provide my heart's desires, whether through conventional methods or not.
As pessimistic and fatalistic as it may seem, that's all there is to it.
The End. Finito.
The so-called 'pull' to return to it is usually expressed to me based on perceived underlying personal fears - what if ending it doesn't work i.e. the goal does not materialise when I am with others, it will take more time to attain that goal once I start a new one, what if others live a miserable existence without my presence, etc. Or that it would be seen that the ending would be purely my fault, because I am impatient, demanding, inconsiderate, uncommunicative, stuck-in-the-past, and a negative influence toward others.
I fear none of these, because God is with me, every step of the way.
There is no real indication of even the slightest action toward achieving that goal. Time and again, it was proven that there is no priority set for that goal...talk is cheap, especially when the very idea of goal achievement is based on hearsay and not on easily researched facts.
Instead, emphasis was and is, on frivolous pleasures... that shows me much on where my own position in this situation lies.
I am very grateful to my Lord and praise Him for this opportunity to grow, to learn, to accept others more, and also to accept my own strengths and weaknesses and better myself in Him from there.
I am at peace now, for I know that my Lord will provide my heart's desires, whether through conventional methods or not.
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